“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I’m no longer angry, for instance, although I was up until quite recently. That has passed, but Jane is in poor shape; her decubiti are much more aggravated, and have been for some time. She feels terrible most days. I still want to know what role the sinful self—to use the appellation Seth gave us—plays in all of this, for I’m more convinced than ever that it is still the dominant force behind all of it. An oversimplification, no doubt, but essentially true, I think. As I said to Jane this morning during our long discussion, I still want to know why one portion of the personality would want to drive all of the rest before it, even to the point of destruction, and perhaps even beyond. Surely there’s no future in that for the personality, at least in mundane terms.

(8:53 PM. Jane sighed with obvious relief as she came out of trance. “That answers one question I’ve had for some time: I was getting pretty squirrelly—I wondered if I could still have a session. You know, if some part of me had decided that that was enough of that, or something....”

(Jane had heard the fireworks next door, which had only sounded for two brief intervals. All was quiet. I read her the session. “It’s a start,” I said, and she agreed. I can’t wait for the next one. The alternatives are too painful and unnecessary to consider.)