“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(After all our hurrying to get supper over with—rather later than usual—we seemed to run out of steam. Jane sat half-dozing at the card table, and I tried to focus on reading some of last week’s mail. She surprised me at about 9:15 by saying she might try for a session, since by then I’d thought it too late. She said she was doing the same thing she did last night before that session: getting scared, lapsing, while at the same time she tried to get comfortable on her backside. We waited and waited. Then, in a voice quite strong and firm, but with many pauses:)

(9:52.) It is time not only to renew the sessions, to begin your new policies, but also to be patient with your own progress once you are certain that you are trying your best. The idea of moving is (underlined) an excellent one, because it symbolically reorganizes your life in new patterns, and releases “energy” that has been stuck in old arrangements.

Your concentration has been upon impediments first of all and then secondly on how to rid yourselves of them. Help over this present period will let you see what I mean in a clearer light—but the thrust of your joint motions is upward.

Again, this will be a brief session, but I will be quite sure you receive the material that you want and need. The organization of the material comes almost in packages, you might say, hopefully to be delivered at the best possible time, so have Ruburt keep his eye out for sessions in the day sometimes, at least for starters (as I have suggested also). The same kind of acceleration, however, applies in your own life, Joseph, and I will also have more to say in that regard.

Ruburt is doing well under these circumstances—I am referring to the last few days—with the help from you that he did indeed so need. This is your own individual and joint expedition. (Long pause.) Hal’s therapy is very good. But you must follow your own dictates right now. Again, remember the two of you have very strong do-it-yourself qualities, exhibited long before the sessions began.

(10:09 PM. “There were long periods, weren’t there?” Jane asked as soon as she was out of it, meaning that she had been aware of the numerous long pauses in her delivery. “When I saw what time it was, I almost didn’t want to do it—but I still wanted to try, no matter what.” Now she was wide awake and alert, much more at ease and talking rapidly.

(“I could tell that from the way you’re talking,” I said. “But what we got is a lot better than nothing. You’ve also got to get off your ass. I’ve got to change the bandages on your [left] elbow, too. It needs it.”

(The drainage from the elbow had been sticking up her blouse. Last week a rather mild infection had developed in the open area that had been infected last August. I’d gotten her prescription for E-Mycin refilled as soon as Jane’s nurse had pointed out the reinfection, but Jane hasn’t been taking it faithfully, three times a day, as she should. Of course her body has largely kept the infection under control; actually the elbow looks much better. On at least a couple of days she didn’t take the antibiotic at all. I think the medication would also help the ulcer on her right heel.

(Once again, very forcefully:)But it was material; it was data that you needed, and did not want at the same time. You had to understand to some degree what the rest of the world had to put up with. Only by so doing could you clear the air and make your own decisions as to the course the rest of your lives would take. You are making the proper decisions now, but you needed your own complete cooperation—Ruburt in particular but you also.

(“You were much more forceful, loud, and fast,” I said approvingly. “That was good.” I explained that I’d included material in my intro for Dreams that echoed Seth’s comments here as to why we became involved in the medical arena. But Jane said she didn’t remember it—certainly that she hadn’t interpreted it that way.