“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(After all our hurrying to get supper over with—rather later than usual—we seemed to run out of steam. Jane sat half-dozing at the card table, and I tried to focus on reading some of last week’s mail. She surprised me at about 9:15 by saying she might try for a session, since by then I’d thought it too late. She said she was doing the same thing she did last night before that session: getting scared, lapsing, while at the same time she tried to get comfortable on her backside. We waited and waited. Then, in a voice quite strong and firm, but with many pauses:)

(Long pause.) There are organizations, patterns that people try out throughout their lives, changing often from one to the other, interpreting and therefore of course experiencing reality through many different casts. Some, overall, would seem quite destructive.

(Long pause, eyes closed.) These are like containers for behavior, however. For some time, as you became involved with the hospital and medical habits and people, Ruburt in particular grew very frightened. He began to look at his own experience—to some extent, now—through that medical cast. (Long pause.) He saw how unfortunate its results could be. You were both quite aware of the fact that to almost anyone else there is no blame attached to following such a premise. Ruburt became very frightened, however, as he saw where such a trend could lead.

Ruburt is doing well under these circumstances—I am referring to the last few days—with the help from you that he did indeed so need. This is your own individual and joint expedition. (Long pause.) Hal’s therapy is very good. But you must follow your own dictates right now. Again, remember the two of you have very strong do-it-yourself qualities, exhibited long before the sessions began.

(10:09 PM. “There were long periods, weren’t there?” Jane asked as soon as she was out of it, meaning that she had been aware of the numerous long pauses in her delivery. “When I saw what time it was, I almost didn’t want to do it—but I still wanted to try, no matter what.” Now she was wide awake and alert, much more at ease and talking rapidly.

(“Right,” Jane said. She paused. Then: “Wait a minute.” And I knew she was going back into the session. This time her Seth voice was even more forceful and confident, and she took fewer pauses.