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Chris
dozed
re
scares
maybe
DELETED SESSION
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(This morning I typed the session for November 7, as I tried to catch up on the backlog of material we’ve been accumulating lately. I still felt much better, and thought that Jane did too. I didn’t get into my writing room until 10:00 this morning. Jane was quiet as she sat at the card table in the living room while I worked.
(Appearances can be deceiving, though: After lunch Jane told me that her feelings of panic had returned [see the session for November 7, for instance]. The sensations had begun shortly after I went to work. She hadn’t been able to doze in her chair after all, except fitfully. I asked if the feelings stemmed from the past, or represented a projection into the future.
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(“Well, we can do something about that,” I said. “Do you want to have a session?”
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(“Can you have a session?” I asked at 2:12.
(“I have no idea. If I could just put my head down and relax I’d be so relieved—then maybe I’d switch over to a session.” Her forehead nearly rested upon the tabletop. “I guess after the session last night I got more frightened. I had a hell of a time last night—I went into dream states and hallucinations the whole night. When you came in [at 1:15 AM] I wanted to get up, but I believed what you said, that I had to get off my ass for a while.... I started talking to the people giving the news on TV [channel 13], and Chris’s mother [whom Jane has never met; Chris Hover cleans the house every other Sunday], and to you and other people. But I always feel their presences, as if they’re really there....”
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(“I don’t want to go lay down. I might have to go in and go to the bathroom, which I don’t want to do—then come back out here and see what I can do—maybe have a session....”
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(I didn’t think she’d either go on by herself or have a session. Jane appeared to feel better, though, and was taking solace in relaxing and drifting into sleep states.)
