“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Appearances can be deceiving, though: After lunch Jane told me that her feelings of panic had returned [see the session for November 7, for instance]. The sensations had begun shortly after I went to work. She hadn’t been able to doze in her chair after all, except fitfully. I asked if the feelings stemmed from the past, or represented a projection into the future.

(I repeated that she should have told me when the feelings began—not three hours later. “But it’s good that they’re there,” I said. “It means you’re expressing them, even if they are unpleasant. If you weren’t they’d still be buried.”

(“Maybe if you’ll let me mutter on,” Jane said, with nearly a laugh. “I even have these dreams that you can wish me out into the car and take me down to those hills in Pennsylvania.... And I even wonder about the woman [Mrs. Anderson] who lived in this house, and committed suicide later—though it’s no big deal. I don’t feel suicidal, as far as I know. Although I feel very scary about doing something like yelling or pulling my hair or something like that—I don’t know—losing control, and yet when I look around our room I never fail to take note of the room and the red couch cover, and how beautiful it is.”