“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I read yesterday afternoon’s session to Jane this morning. As we’d discussed last evening, we decided to try for another session this morning, possibly to get more specific material on some of the questions I’d raised in the notes for yesterday’s session. Jane also wanted Seth to comment on her “relaxations” during the day: She sleeps practically all day while sitting in her chair. I hoped these relaxations were signs of a healing process taking place after years of tension. At the same time, I wanted material on why Jane might be perpetuating behavior that might lead her back into the hospital—an experience which she’d found to be so traumatic last time.

(I do seem to be slowly learning that Seth may be avoiding being pinned down to material that’s too specific at this time. Perhaps he feels that it isn’t needed at this time, that it’s simply better to just let Jane’s natural healing abilities do their work, now that that “corner in probabilities” has been turned.... In a strange way, I’ve even become inhibited about asking him the direct questions I think I so much want the answers to. Maybe through the graces of Framework 2, the course we’re following, if reluctantly, isn’t so bad after all at this time.

(Last night Jane slept very well. comparatively, and both of us felt more encouraged today. This morning Sheri Peri called re her letters to England on behalf of Jane.

(I lit a cigarette for Jane. A note about the bedsore suggestions given by our nurse, Peggy J: Last Wednesday afternoon during her regular visit Peggy told us she’d talked to her boss, Roe—also a nurse—and that Friday Roe would meet her here to look at Jane’s bedsores. Peggy talked about being relieved of the “responsibility” for the bedsores, which obviously worried her. I’d told Jane to use suggestion so that she wouldn’t be bothered by whatever Roe might say, but suspected that Roe would want Dr. Kardon to examine the bedsores, and probably this would lead to a demand that Jane would go back into the hospital. [I didn’t tell Jane the hospital part of my suspicions, though.]

(On her regular Friday-afternoon visit, Peggy and Jane and I waited for Roe, who was scheduled to visit—but Roe, mysteriously, never showed up. Could she have picked up some sort of message from Jane and me? We don’t know. When Peggy came on Monday afternoon. Roe didn’t show up either, and Peggy didn’t mention it, nor did Peggy dwell on Jane’s bedsores. In some strange way it was as if the whole episode, with its obviously negative implications, never had even been mentioned. I didn’t ask Seth to comment, but should have.

(10:49 AM. Jane’s voice had been quite good. She’d sat with her head down for much of the session. Pauses as usual. Both of us were encouraged. Yes, thank you, Seth. I still felt that surge of expectation and energy, as though we had somehow turned a corner in probabilities. I was keeping the blessings of Framework 2 in mind.

(I had a lot of typing to do. I read the session to Jane. I also stressed how important it was for us not to be bothered by, or even respond to, any negative suggestions unwittingly given by the nurse, Peggy.

(After the session, Jane could almost come up with something about her feelings of abandonment, yet couldn’t quite do so. Maybe she’ll get it later today.

(And in his own way, Seth finally did give us some material on the bedsores. It was much better than I’d dared hope. I feel good about it, and know that Jane will too when she reads the session.)

(As far as I can remember, this will be the first time that we held two separate sessions during the same day—if one develops now. After supper Jane told me to come out to the card table with the notebook at 8:15. I got there at 8:22, after finishing a page of typing from Sunday afternoon’s session. I’m trying to get all the material typed as soon as possible.

(Jane replied that her condition bespoke a generalized relaxation—which was beneficial, of course. I hoped it would lead to increased mobility, at least. Her head kept dipping down and I kept calling her, and she kept telling me that every time I did so I interrupted her when she was “getting something.” To me it looked as though she was falling asleep each time. I stopped badgering her. Then:)

(Jane’s delivery had been sporadic in an odd way, her Seth voice subdued, making me feel that she could lose the session at any moment by slipping off into sleep. She put her glasses on, telling me that she’d felt my concern during the session. I said I was hoping she’d be able to continue for at least a little while. I lit a cigarette for her. We waited. “I’ll do what I can,” she said, taking off her glasses. She was still smoking.

(8:56 PM. “Well, you got something,” I said to Jane, almost laughing. “Had quite a time there, didn’t you?” It was amazing, how much better I felt now than when I’d written the notes for yesterday’s session [Sunday, the 7th]. “Anything you want to add?”

(“Yeah, in a minute,” Jane said. But that was it. I read the session to her.

(This could be quite important: Several times later during the evening, Jane told me that she felt like she was on her feet, with the safety of the chair close behind her when she wanted to sit down. Very encouraging psychological signs, I said, adding that I hoped they were harbingers of future developments.)