“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The day was warm—50 degrees—and sunny. When I got to room 330 I saw that Jane had the patches back on her right elbow and the little toes of her left foot. Not that they had broken out again—but this morning Georgia and Cathy had put them on just to protect those areas. I didn’t know whether to rip them off or not [I did take the one off the elbow later in the afternoon]. The staff had also told Jane that it looked like she may develop a sore in a new spot on a shoulder blade, so they’d slapped a dressing there too. I meant to investigate that one when I turned Jane later in the day, but forgot to. She said nothing there has bothered her.

(After a good lunch, Jane started reading aloud yesterday’s session. She didn’t do too well, although she improved on yesterday’s efforts. She finished half an hour later, at 3:30, and we discussed the above events, plus her quick motions involving the burning cigarette of the night before that.

(Then Jane told me that the night nurse, Toni, whom I’ve yet to meet, tried to help her lay on her right side last night, for the first time since she’d broken the leg. Oddly enough, the break didn’t bother Jane, since a pillow was used beneath the leg as a cushion—but, Jane said, her feet did, so she didn’t stay in that position for more than fifteen minutes. But the fact that she’d moved onto her right side at all was a help, I said, another step along the way.

(4:20. A few left leg motions. “It’s all right, don’t worry about the right leg,” Jane said several times as she lifted her left leg and rotated her foot at the ankle gently. Her motions today were subdued, her grunts and breathing not so prominent. She said she didn’t try to do much in hydro because of the water: “I guess that’s just the way different people do it.”

(I was surprised to learn that she had considered not telling me about her morning’s episode that brought on the blues: hydro. The situation reminded me of my wife’s strong secretive streak in her makeup—one much like mine, I thought. I also think this streak has played a large part in her “symptoms” over the years, and that each one of us ought to work hard at eliminating, or at least minimizing, that aspect of our personalities. I think this is an important point, and one I meant to go into with her, but didn’t. I’ll mention it tomorrow, Tuesday. I think that each of us can help keep the other on an even keel by talking about our hidden tendencies.