“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane refused to lie down this morning while I went to Gerould’s, so I had to get her out of bed, after changing the dressings, within 10 minutes. As I sit here writing this evening, her legs are fatter than ever. Yet she herself first came up with the insight tonight that the panic was expressing itself through her disorientations and/or hallucinations. A very important point, a creative insight. She got mad at me briefly just now when I demanded to know if I would really get a session tonight: “Bob, I’m trying as hard as I can. I said you’d get one. You’ll get one.” Yet the next moment she was back hallucinating. A few minutes ago she’d told me that she had to have the session in order to get rid of the anxiety-hallucination complex.

First of all, the anxiety rises with its own rhythm (pause), expressing at this time the anxious patterns that lie beneath, serving both as messages of the nature of the stress, and containing also other deeper material that has, in a fashion, accumulated. You are not comfortable. Arrange yourselves and I will return.

(8:47.) Those early feelings date back to Ruburt’s early childhood. They are the final, and yet first expressions of that panic. Therefore, they can be extremely valuable. There was also of course the event of St. Vincent’s. Also numerous small abandonments when Ruburt was still younger—but with your help he can indeed clear both mind, body and spirit, for he senses that relief, and knows it is at least within his grasp.

The session is apt to go off and on, but for a fairly long period—I am not sure—as we deal with the nature of action and expression. (Long pause.) Reassure him of your love again. See his head is well lifted, and I will shortly return.

Your own explanation of events from our material, as understood by you, will also now be of important import, as you express them to Ruburt during uneasy times. Take a break.