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(We have yet to be given the results of the thyroid-blood test that was to be run last Wednesday, according to Dr. K’s nurse. I haven’t called, figuring it’s of little use. There may have been delays or goof-ups, as happened while Jane was in the hospital. I think she’s very gradually changing for the better as things are, and for the moment at least am content to take some comfort in that. Jane agrees. She’s still on the reduced Synthroid dosage, since we haven’t been told to change it.

(One thing that led to our decision to cut down the visits was that I felt that often Jane seemed worse after the nurses left than she was before they arrived, although her being stirred up for a couple of hours may have contributed to my feeling. But it does seem like a mixed blessing at best. We’re always on the watch for negative suggestions, and some of the nurses dispense these very freely. One of them, Eleanor, visited Jane the last two Mondays and Tuesdays. She is now on vacation, and we trust that the reduced schedule will do away with Eleanor’s visits. She is a nice person who means well, but who also broadcasts negative suggestions like a radio beacon, quite unwittingly. It’s easy to see that she has built her life around such feelings, and is quite pleased with it. [She told Jane she’s had five operations herself.] Jane got so that when Eleanor was here she was constantly saying “no, no, no” to herself as the nurse talked, in order to protect herself from that steady barrage.