“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(One thing that led to our decision to cut down the visits was that I felt that often Jane seemed worse after the nurses left than she was before they arrived, although her being stirred up for a couple of hours may have contributed to my feeling. But it does seem like a mixed blessing at best. We’re always on the watch for negative suggestions, and some of the nurses dispense these very freely. One of them, Eleanor, visited Jane the last two Mondays and Tuesdays. She is now on vacation, and we trust that the reduced schedule will do away with Eleanor’s visits. She is a nice person who means well, but who also broadcasts negative suggestions like a radio beacon, quite unwittingly. It’s easy to see that she has built her life around such feelings, and is quite pleased with it. [She told Jane she’s had five operations herself.] Jane got so that when Eleanor was here she was constantly saying “no, no, no” to herself as the nurse talked, in order to protect herself from that steady barrage.

(Both of us were down yesterday, myself actually for a couple of days. By last night, however, Jane had picked up some encouraging messages from Seth, which she relayed partially to me. I said I wished she’d made notes, which upset Jane because she thought I should have been glad she got the material to begin with, whether or not it was written down. A good point, I conceded. One of Seth’s points was that we’d “taken a crash course” in medical beliefs, or words to that effect, I believe. I thought that tonight Jane wanted to try for a short session in order to get that material recorded.

(As Seth remarked, the session is an excellent one. and we must try to put it into practice. I think that many of his suggestions are automatically falling into place in our lives, too, and that our “crash course in medicine” has served as an invaluable trigger and impetus in that regard. How ironic it may turn out to be—that a course we avoided for many years—the medical one—may turn out to be the final push we needed in order to put our beliefs in order.)