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(I didn’t tell Jane about the dream. I haven’t made any effort to record dreams since her illness, simply not focusing on that activity. I’ve recalled portions of some very vivid dreams, also involving my parents, but haven’t spontaneously remembered them in full detail as I usually do.

(Jane was particularly “out of it” for most of yesterday, after sleeping well past 9 AM. She often dozed in her chair and talked to herself, indulging in various flights of imaginative activity. Once again we wondered how much more of a boost her thyroid medication needed, but we haven’t heard from Dr. Kardon about it—or anything else, for that matter, since we had the meeting with Dr. Sobel last Friday, May 28. Our ideas have changed. Jane’s finger continues to improve, and for now at least we don’t even want to hear from any medical people. We regard the overnight affair at the hospital, and the enormous cost of it and the tests, as largely a waste.

(Jane’s voice was shaky, but her finger looked better. Eleanor Maggi, the nurse, visits tomorrow, and we plan to tell her to make her visits on Tuesday and Friday next week. Or I’ll call Upjohn with our new twice-a-week schedule. We’ve been on that schedule for a couple of weeks already, actually, and it appears to be enough. It also cuts costs. But a major reason for our reducing the nurses’ visits is to get rid of the constant negative suggestions they unwittingly broadcast, all in the name of trying to be helpful.

(As I wrote these notes Jane kept leaning to her left in her chair and lapsing into sleep. I called her several times. “Well, I’ll see what I can do....” Then in a fairly good voice, but with pauses:)

I am aware of these lapses. They have to do with the utilization of energy. They rather come in patterns, and usually (underlined) signify that the body is ready for some additional thyroid medication in that framework you have set up for it. (Long pause.) It also allows for a certain necessary relaxation, however. For now, some return to the vitamins will be helpful, because of Ruburt’s beliefs—but helpful nevertheless. The ones advertised to combat stress in particular can at this time act as certain cushions. Ruburt should make an effort to follow through on whatever suggestions I give, for they are meant to facilitate his good spirits and recovery. He is recovering. Now we bid you a fond good evening —but remember those suggestions I mentioned earlier, for Ruburt can really utilize them now. End of visit—no bill need be expected (with more humor).

(“Thank you.” 9:26 PM. Jane said that while I was shopping today she’d dreamed or felt herself walking around the card table—not perfectly straight, but as though testing her weight upon her legs. A very good sign, I said.)