“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I also knew she hadn’t wanted to keep the appointment, and that she blamed me at least partly for her keeping it. At the same time she said she wanted to talk to an “expert” on arthritis. I felt caught between these opposing ideas, and didn’t really know what to do. I figured there were reasons for the finger thing erupting so suddenly to begin with, and leading us against our conscious wills into the whole hospital scene at St. Joe’s, so whatever lessons there are in those experiences are still being assimilated. It wasn’t until we returned home Friday afternoon that I began to see how upset Jane had become by thoughts of arthritis, vasculitis, angiograms, clots, drugs, operations, etc. I kept thinking that she was on her way to adopting a stance in which she would turn against medical help and/or advice if at all possible.

Ruburt is still recovering from the emergency-room experience of last Friday. I want to point out several things. Ruburt felt strongly against keeping the appointment. His body let him know it did not anticipate such an encounter. He used suggestion and so forth—but body and emotions both stubbornly retained their opinions. Or so it seemed.

Many conflicts naturally begin to resolve themselves in your relationship as you handle Ruburt’s changing conditions. (Long pause.) Your massage today, for example (after Hal Williams), was an excellent translation of love and comfort, felt directly at one level of your own being, to the level within Ruburt where it was most needed.