“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This morning, in between calls from my brother Loren and his wife, and Mrs. Austin’s son about delivering the laundry, I worked on the first draft of a letter to Maude Cardwell at Reality Change in Austin, Texas. I outlined the thoughts Jane and I had about the fund she suggested for our medical expenses.

(“Did others pick up our insurance hassle, and come up with the fund thing?” I asked. “According to the material, that’s the way things would work.”

Your feeling (underlined) of need was picked up by those others who follow your work and career, and feel that they know you both, particularly through your(to me) notes.

(“Yes,” I said. “But I wasn’t necessarily thinking that the insurance probabilities wouldn’t work out.” I wanted to say more, but felt too constrained by time and my own groping questions to speak clearly.)

(7:12 PM. I was glad I’d stayed. Jane had a cigarette while I packed my stuff to leave. Unexpectedly, I’d stumbled across several questions. Above all, I didn’t want the fund idea, say, to lead to complications with the insurance deal, I told Jane, or perhaps to lead to a failure of a settlement there. That is, I didn’t want to desert the insurance angle; I felt we were owed something there. I knew full well that new events brought in new probabilities. This morning while working on the letter to Maude Cardwell, I guess I’d blithely took it for granted that the fund idea might supplement any insurance benefits. But then after supper, as I talked with Seth, I found myself wondering whether the fund thing would cause enough of a change in our probabilities to perhaps negate the insurance settlement, whatever it might be. I do have faith that we’ll be treated fairly. I want to note that I have faith that all will work out, that I’m not running from one hope to another while deserting previous ones.)