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(3:20. Jane began reading yesterday’s session. She did much better than she has been doing lately, but still not too well. She finished at 3:42. “My eyes felt strained.” They weren’t as red today, however.

No specific data, per se, was received—only the feeling of need—and to that those people responded. They responded, then, to your feeling whether or not the feeling was justified in a basic way. You felt the need, in other words, even though I assured you that overall the matter would be solved on your behalf.

(“Yes,” I said. “But I wasn’t necessarily thinking that the insurance probabilities wouldn’t work out.” I wanted to say more, but felt too constrained by time and my own groping questions to speak clearly.)

(7:12 PM. I was glad I’d stayed. Jane had a cigarette while I packed my stuff to leave. Unexpectedly, I’d stumbled across several questions. Above all, I didn’t want the fund idea, say, to lead to complications with the insurance deal, I told Jane, or perhaps to lead to a failure of a settlement there. That is, I didn’t want to desert the insurance angle; I felt we were owed something there. I knew full well that new events brought in new probabilities. This morning while working on the letter to Maude Cardwell, I guess I’d blithely took it for granted that the fund idea might supplement any insurance benefits. But then after supper, as I talked with Seth, I found myself wondering whether the fund thing would cause enough of a change in our probabilities to perhaps negate the insurance settlement, whatever it might be. I do have faith that we’ll be treated fairly. I want to note that I have faith that all will work out, that I’m not running from one hope to another while deserting previous ones.)