1 result for (book:tps7 AND heading:"delet session decemb 30 1983" AND stemmed:but)
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fund
insurance
Cardwell
Del
Maude
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(As she ate a good lunch I told Jane about my very vivid dream of last night—in which Jane, myself and her deceased father, Del, had driven to Bemidji, Minnesota, in the summertime. In wintertime that town is one of the coldest spots in the country. I described how Del had driven us around the town and country there in his old pickup truck, and how for a time he and I had become separated from Jane. I’d also spent time wandering around alone up there, but Jane and I were eventually reunited safe and sound.
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(3:20. Jane began reading yesterday’s session. She did much better than she has been doing lately, but still not too well. She finished at 3:42. “My eyes felt strained.” They weren’t as red today, however.
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I may or may not return, again according to those rhythms of which I speak—but know that I am present and approachable.
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(Jane agreed. “Seth could say something about it now, but you’d better get going or you’ll never get to eat supper.”
(I hesitated, though I was a little tired. “Yeah, but it may be worth it to stay.” I got my notebook out again and sat down beside her. Seth came through right away.
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(“Yes,” I said. “But I wasn’t necessarily thinking that the insurance probabilities wouldn’t work out.” I wanted to say more, but felt too constrained by time and my own groping questions to speak clearly.)
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(7:12 PM. I was glad I’d stayed. Jane had a cigarette while I packed my stuff to leave. Unexpectedly, I’d stumbled across several questions. Above all, I didn’t want the fund idea, say, to lead to complications with the insurance deal, I told Jane, or perhaps to lead to a failure of a settlement there. That is, I didn’t want to desert the insurance angle; I felt we were owed something there. I knew full well that new events brought in new probabilities. This morning while working on the letter to Maude Cardwell, I guess I’d blithely took it for granted that the fund idea might supplement any insurance benefits. But then after supper, as I talked with Seth, I found myself wondering whether the fund thing would cause enough of a change in our probabilities to perhaps negate the insurance settlement, whatever it might be. I do have faith that we’ll be treated fairly. I want to note that I have faith that all will work out, that I’m not running from one hope to another while deserting previous ones.)
