“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I had no calls or disturbances of any kind this morning, and greatly enjoyed the privacy. Pete didn’t call, and I didn’t do a damned thing except get up, clean up, get the paper and feed the cats, eat breakfast and go to work marking up Chapter 4 of Dreams, which I finished typing a couple of days ago. I felt peaceful and at ease.

(I’m sure my improved attitude resulted from the last two sessions—plus other recent ones—but I have resolved anew that I must simply concentrate upon my creative work each day, see Jane and help her as much as I can, and spare my body consciousness the needless stress of worrying about the future. I must let the rest of the world go its own way. This doesn’t mean that I make believe we have no challenges, but that I for one refuse to dwell upon them, so as to not draw forth unwanted probabilities. I have also renewed my faith and expectations that Jane and I will get what we want. When I find myself beginning to worry about some hassle, I deliberately turn my mind away. It’s ultimately the only way I can function creatively on a day-by-day basis. Knowing that relieves me of spending my valuable time in adversarial positions and activities. This all means, obviously, that we do need help from others—whether they be lawyers, doctors, nurses, publishers, or whatever, and this way we stay in contact with the rest of our world.

(I wrote the above material after Jane had lunch, and read it to her at once. She had a good night and morning, with some new motions in hydro. When I got to 330 she was having spasms in her inner thigh and buttock muscles—those areas I’d noticed being so tight yesterday. They often happen when she moves her left arm, she said—the two sort of working in tandem. I said it seems the legs are on their way to clearing themselves more—that the jerky motions result from unused muscles trying to get back into the rhythm of everyday motion. I asked Jane to be sure to not inhibit or turn off the spasms, or tighten up out of fear that something was wrong.

(3:22. She had a cigarette while I worked on mail. I’d also said I wanted to go over the last two sessions with her, plus some older ones.)

Comments concerning Ruburt. At this present stage he is activating portions of the body in new ways. This gives an uneven performance. The stage will shortly be over, however. In the meantime he should realize that the process itself is therapeutic. When it is over he will have far better use of his arms and legs, as they will work together more smoothly.

(3:45. “It’s me.” Jane was bothered by leg and bladder spasms at the same time. She said her legs worked well in hydro this morning.

(Jean Reome called this afternoon, is anxious to get back to work; talked to Jane also. Margaret Bumbalo invited me over for supper, and I didn’t know whether to accept or not, since I wanted to be sure I got this session typed. But I went, and it was very enjoyable. Soon they’ll leave for Florida. Margaret said that when she looks at Jane now she sees something beside skin stretched over bone. “She’s got something there now—she’s even getting a pot.”