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(I’m sure my improved attitude resulted from the last two sessions—plus other recent ones—but I have resolved anew that I must simply concentrate upon my creative work each day, see Jane and help her as much as I can, and spare my body consciousness the needless stress of worrying about the future. I must let the rest of the world go its own way. This doesn’t mean that I make believe we have no challenges, but that I for one refuse to dwell upon them, so as to not draw forth unwanted probabilities. I have also renewed my faith and expectations that Jane and I will get what we want. When I find myself beginning to worry about some hassle, I deliberately turn my mind away. It’s ultimately the only way I can function creatively on a day-by-day basis. Knowing that relieves me of spending my valuable time in adversarial positions and activities. This all means, obviously, that we do need help from others—whether they be lawyers, doctors, nurses, publishers, or whatever, and this way we stay in contact with the rest of our world.

(3:05. Jane began reading yesterday’s session—doing much better than she had yesterday. She held the papers easily enough in her left hand, as usual these days. She was through with the session in 15 minutes.

(3:22. She had a cigarette while I worked on mail. I’d also said I wanted to go over the last two sessions with her, plus some older ones.)

The notes that you read to Ruburt, the handwritten ones, are excellent. It would be a good idea, however, for the two of you to review several sessions. We were beginning to explain some new points about probabilities, as you surmised.

(Not long after the session was over I told Jane I meant to ask Seth to comment on the vivid dream I’d had last night about the Gallaghers and an unkempt young man who was living with them. I’d described it to Jane earlier. Suffice it to note that I saw Peg and Bill living in squalor in a crude house on a barge or houseboat, with dirt floors, old furniture, and so forth. I’d surmised that their living conditions, in spite of the money they’d earned all their lives, represented their poor belief systems. And that, maybe, the young man they’d taken in represented me as I’d used to be, or a perpetuation of their belief systems into later generations.

(3:50. I began reading older sessions to her. Jane’s leg spasms were frequent. She said she’s had more impulses to sit up on the side of the bed in recent days, since Seth first discussed that impulse on December 19.

(4:21. Jane had a cigarette. I dipped it for her. I checked her left index finger: It bent at the middle joint more than it had several weeks ago, when the first movement occurred. I read her some more sessions. She said that staff people commented again this morning on the way her ulcers are healing. The one on her left shoulder is filling in and healing, that bothers her so when she lies on her left side.

(4:25. I read her a few more sessions.

(Jean Reome called this afternoon, is anxious to get back to work; talked to Jane also. Margaret Bumbalo invited me over for supper, and I didn’t know whether to accept or not, since I wanted to be sure I got this session typed. But I went, and it was very enjoyable. Soon they’ll leave for Florida. Margaret said that when she looks at Jane now she sees something beside skin stretched over bone. “She’s got something there now—she’s even getting a pot.”

(It was raining, and just above freezing. I left at 7:09, after reading today’s session to Jane, and the prayer with her.)