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(Jane ate a good lunch. Afterward three of the staff came in to hoist her further up the bed and change her drawsheet. They had to lift Jane, and this hurt her; she cried. She began to read yesterday’s session while I did mail, and once again she started out holding the papers on the left side with her left hand. Then shortly afterward she also began using her right hand on the right side. She didn’t read well today, though, but got through the session finally.

(In between those calls, Steve Blumenthal called, and I told him that Jane and I had decided not to go through with the tape deal. It was harder for me to tell him than I thought it would be, since I didn’t want to hurt anyone, etc. Steve took it well, and is going to use up the retainer he gave the Ithaca lawyer to have her ask Prentice-Hall some questions, etc. It’s a free country, I said, he can ask them anything he likes, I suppose. I turned down his request to sign a letter of authorization. I said that I didn’t want the extra stress involved with the tape deal, that we’d dealt with our publisher for many years, and that I didn’t look forward to being in an adversarial position vis-à-vis them. I’m in enough adversarial positions now, what with insurance companies, doctors, infirmaries, and so forth. Steve is to keep in touch.

(4:10 PM. “That’s not bad, considering the time,” Jane said, pleased that she’d had the session after all of the other events of the day. I was very tired and relaxed. I hadn’t used the pendulum, for example, but I suspected that I was reacting to calling off the tape deal. I was still worrying that I’d hurt others and cost them money, though.)