“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(1:30. Jane ate very well. An hour later I called Andrew Fife in billing; he was out for 15 minutes, and would call back, a girl said. I started my daily notes. When Andrew called I went to see him, showing him the two latest communications from Blue Cross, with the new claim numbers for Jane’s account; he copied them, and reiterated that the company was stalling: “It helps their cash flow, but it doesn’t do anything for ours.” A lot of money is involved—millions of dollars, upon which Blue Cross can collect extra interest by postponing their payments to clients, he said.

(4:32. “Is he saying something new here?” I asked Jane as soon as she was out of trance.

(“What I mean is,” I said, “I think he’s saying something new about you. I may be jumping the gun—but it’s giving me a slightly different picture of you.”

(I didn’t ask my wife who the eight dollars were for. “You can start a new Seth book any time you want to.”

(When I read her my note at break, dealing with her own reaction to a conventional religious background, she most definitely agreed with it. I guess this isn’t new information after all, I thought, yet I felt that it was. Perhaps, before, we’ve been assigning Jane’s symptoms too much to her wanting to restrict herself to make herself work, because she feared that being left alone, she wouldn’t work. But the real conflict could be that her early religious conditioning especially forbade her working with her natural abilities to their own specified degrees. Her self-distrust was the conscious overlay for the culturally forbidden activities.