“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I got there at 1:05. It was raining heavily, but warm—about 35—and I got my feet wet because I’d left my rubbers in 330. I dried my shoes on the heater, which is working well now. Jane was ready to be turned at once: She was uncomfortable with a folded pillow placed under her right foot, so that it raised her foot up too high and placed a strain on her right knee as she lay on her side. Mary Ann had put it there, with a student; they’d taken care of Jane this morning. Jane said the act was done before she realized it, and they were gone.

(3:49. I did mail. Jane did a few mild motions with her head and shoulders and left foot. Her ulcers continue to do well. I fixed her lower teeth with a fresh insert, but it didn’t seem to help.

(The supper tray came. It was time for me to turn her on her left side. “Now my foot’s going, and stuff,” Jane said, as soon as I mentioned turning her. I was very pleased to see her “branching out,” so to speak, with the session material, even though it still was applied to her for the most part.

(When I read her my note at break, dealing with her own reaction to a conventional religious background, she most definitely agreed with it. I guess this isn’t new information after all, I thought, yet I felt that it was. Perhaps, before, we’ve been assigning Jane’s symptoms too much to her wanting to restrict herself to make herself work, because she feared that being left alone, she wouldn’t work. But the real conflict could be that her early religious conditioning especially forbade her working with her natural abilities to their own specified degrees. Her self-distrust was the conscious overlay for the culturally forbidden activities.