“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“I’ve got that damned question-and-answer thing going on inside my head,” she remarked now with some exasperation. She’d just spoken a phrase I didn’t understand as I worked on these notes—something in answer to a question she’d thought I’d asked. I hadn’t said anything. She has been doing this since suppertime, and has repeated it at other times. She was angry and concerned. “Jesus, now I just started to drift right off,” she said.

(“See, now, that really bothers me,” Jane said at 8:l6. “I’ve done nothing but doze off since I called you.... Maybe Seth’s right—about dozing after eating.... I’m warm now, quite warm. Like now I’m afraid to pick up a cigarette—I think I’ve got one in my hand but I don’t at all.... But I do have the feeling that Seth will give us considerable help once we get going. I half-assed feel him around....”

(“All right,” I think I can do it very briefly....” Her voice was fairly steady, her eyes dark, and she took many pauses.

(“It would be a joke if [Dr.] Cummins turned out to be right after all,” I said now. For of all the doctors she’d encountered while in the hospital, Jane had liked Dr. C the best, feeling intuitively drawn to him and his optimistic statements that once her thyroid began functioning again she’d find herself getting around much much better than she thought possible. Cummins’s opinion had been largely negated by Dr. K., especially after Dr. K’s friend from Ithaca, the rheumatologist Dr. Sobel had examined Jane at Dr. K’s request early in Jane’s hospital stay. He’d evidently given Dr. K a very negative report on Jane. When we’d told Dr. K. what Dr C. had said, Dr K. had remarked that Dr C. “hadn’t seen as many cases of arthritis as Dr. S. had” —meaning of course that Dr C. wasn’t that much of an expert, and that his opinion could be discounted....)