“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“I’ve got that damned question-and-answer thing going on inside my head,” she remarked now with some exasperation. She’d just spoken a phrase I didn’t understand as I worked on these notes—something in answer to a question she’d thought I’d asked. I hadn’t said anything. She has been doing this since suppertime, and has repeated it at other times. She was angry and concerned. “Jesus, now I just started to drift right off,” she said.

(8:12. For several days now, at Dr. Kardon’s suggestion, I’ve been giving Jane only the 50 mcg. Synthroid tablet, instead of that plus the 25 mcg., thus cutting her dosage by a third. I’d started this after Dr. K’s visit to the house and examination of Jane last Wednesday. Thursday a nurse from Arnot-Ogden drew blood from Jane for the tests Dr. K wanted, including the thyroid. This morning Dr. K’s nurse called and gave us the results of the tests—all but the thyroid, that is, which is to run this coming Wednesday. The eight tests that were run were all normal; I have a list of them. We do think Jane may be a little better off with the reduced Synthroid dose, although this may be hard to prove. Odd, since ordinarily the reduced dosage would seem to be the opposite course of treatment Jane would need, with an underactive thyroid gland....

(“See, now, that really bothers me,” Jane said at 8:l6. “I’ve done nothing but doze off since I called you.... Maybe Seth’s right—about dozing after eating.... I’m warm now, quite warm. Like now I’m afraid to pick up a cigarette—I think I’ve got one in my hand but I don’t at all.... But I do have the feeling that Seth will give us considerable help once we get going. I half-assed feel him around....”

(Jane still dozed, but perhaps the dozing was qualified now, for how could it be related to her relaxing enough to go into trance? She sat dozing with her body tipping to her left in the chair as we sat at the card table in the living room.

Now: Ruburt’s body is experimenting with its own metabolism. The gland is (underlined) activating itself by itself—off and on, so to speak, giving a sputtering effect. Overall, the body is exploring the best rhythm of metabolism, and fitting itself in with the medication. In some fashions it uses more energies at times than at others, and slowly begins to demand more energy, so there will be periods of unevenness—but he is (underlined) being provided for. He is (underlined) safe, secure, and protected. Remembering a few small but potent suggestions will of course be of greatest benefit—particularly to offset any negative hospital suggestions, which do of course exist. On the other hand, in such cases remember that often a doctor’s or a nurse’s negative suggestions or fears, voiced, simply give voice to the individual’s own fears. And if he or she can understand this the individual can then counter such suggestions that seem to come from “outside,” I will indeed, and before too long, begin again some therapeutic material, winding this in with other pertinent data. The two of you can best help each other above all (long pause at 8:29) by communicating as honestly and clearly as possible, for expressions of your love will then come to the surface where on both of your parts that certain emotional expression often goes hungry.

(8:34.) I hope here merely to set up again the feel of the sessions, and then will gradually give you more material. Tonight’s message is in the way of reassurance. I cannot impress upon you too much, however, the importance of those early sessions on the Magical Approach, for they will make even more sense to you now after the hospital experience. You will also, it seems, be far more willing to accept such ideas, not quite as stubborn in the retention of old belief.

(Long pause.) I am speaking primarily to Ruburt in this particular sentence, but to some extent this applies to both of you, particularly involving the projecting of negative beliefs into the future. There is no reason why, with proper attitudes, even within your situation, that the typing of my last book should not go easily, Joseph. Ruburt’s hands will improve. Normal writing will become as real to him as his normal hearing is now.

For now I bid you a fond good evening—but your policy of sitting and waiting is a good one, at least several times a week.... I did not suggest that you go to the medical profession, or suggest you stay away from it specifically, knowing that your own beliefs would lead toward the proper decision whichever way it fell.

That is enough for now. My heartiest regards, and a fond good evening.

(“It would be a joke if [Dr.] Cummins turned out to be right after all,” I said now. For of all the doctors she’d encountered while in the hospital, Jane had liked Dr. C the best, feeling intuitively drawn to him and his optimistic statements that once her thyroid began functioning again she’d find herself getting around much much better than she thought possible. Cummins’s opinion had been largely negated by Dr. K., especially after Dr. K’s friend from Ithaca, the rheumatologist Dr. Sobel had examined Jane at Dr. K’s request early in Jane’s hospital stay. He’d evidently given Dr. K a very negative report on Jane. When we’d told Dr. K. what Dr C. had said, Dr K. had remarked that Dr C. “hadn’t seen as many cases of arthritis as Dr. S. had” —meaning of course that Dr C. wasn’t that much of an expert, and that his opinion could be discounted....)