“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I’d stopped asking Jane for sessions, private or regular, since most of the time it seemed obvious that she wasn’t up to it, so she rather surprised me after supper tonight by saying that if I “sat with her” for ten minutes or so she’d see if she could have a session. She added that she often thought of trying something that way, but that she hesitated to ask me to take the time to sit around in case nothing happened, since she knew I was trying to work as much as I could on the intro for Seth’s Dreams. My answer was that I’d gladly do the sitting around if she wanted to, on the chance that we might get some helpful material—especially about her own condition.

(“I’ve got that damned question-and-answer thing going on inside my head,” she remarked now with some exasperation. She’d just spoken a phrase I didn’t understand as I worked on these notes—something in answer to a question she’d thought I’d asked. I hadn’t said anything. She has been doing this since suppertime, and has repeated it at other times. She was angry and concerned. “Jesus, now I just started to drift right off,” she said.

(8:12. For several days now, at Dr. Kardon’s suggestion, I’ve been giving Jane only the 50 mcg. Synthroid tablet, instead of that plus the 25 mcg., thus cutting her dosage by a third. I’d started this after Dr. K’s visit to the house and examination of Jane last Wednesday. Thursday a nurse from Arnot-Ogden drew blood from Jane for the tests Dr. K wanted, including the thyroid. This morning Dr. K’s nurse called and gave us the results of the tests—all but the thyroid, that is, which is to run this coming Wednesday. The eight tests that were run were all normal; I have a list of them. We do think Jane may be a little better off with the reduced Synthroid dose, although this may be hard to prove. Odd, since ordinarily the reduced dosage would seem to be the opposite course of treatment Jane would need, with an underactive thyroid gland....

(“See, now, that really bothers me,” Jane said at 8:l6. “I’ve done nothing but doze off since I called you.... Maybe Seth’s right—about dozing after eating.... I’m warm now, quite warm. Like now I’m afraid to pick up a cigarette—I think I’ve got one in my hand but I don’t at all.... But I do have the feeling that Seth will give us considerable help once we get going. I half-assed feel him around....”

(“All right,” I think I can do it very briefly....” Her voice was fairly steady, her eyes dark, and she took many pauses.

Now: Ruburt’s body is experimenting with its own metabolism. The gland is (underlined) activating itself by itself—off and on, so to speak, giving a sputtering effect. Overall, the body is exploring the best rhythm of metabolism, and fitting itself in with the medication. In some fashions it uses more energies at times than at others, and slowly begins to demand more energy, so there will be periods of unevenness—but he is (underlined) being provided for. He is (underlined) safe, secure, and protected. Remembering a few small but potent suggestions will of course be of greatest benefit—particularly to offset any negative hospital suggestions, which do of course exist. On the other hand, in such cases remember that often a doctor’s or a nurse’s negative suggestions or fears, voiced, simply give voice to the individual’s own fears. And if he or she can understand this the individual can then counter such suggestions that seem to come from “outside,” I will indeed, and before too long, begin again some therapeutic material, winding this in with other pertinent data. The two of you can best help each other above all (long pause at 8:29) by communicating as honestly and clearly as possible, for expressions of your love will then come to the surface where on both of your parts that certain emotional expression often goes hungry.

This kind of communication can also help both of you in many ways, because the verbal expressions themselves stand for and represent inner emotions and expressions and fulfillments, and rouse your beings, for in some ways your emotions do of course move you (with emphasis.