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DELETED SESSION

(We’d thought that Seth might refer to them in the session for last Monday, but none was held because once again Jane was so relaxed on the couch after supper. She was also somewhat blue and discouraged. In fact, I hadn’t expected a session tonight until she called me at 8:40, so relaxed was she. She’s been sleeping much better generally, though, is still taking a nap in the late morning as well as our usual nap break just before supper. She’s also been heading for bed a half hour earlier at night.

(She was very quiet as session time approached, but wasn’t too comfortable in her chair. I was quiet too—we’d been more or less that way all day. “I think it’ll be short,” she finally said.)

The church was quite real to Ruburt as a child, through the priests who came [to the house] regularly, through direct contact with the religious [grade] school, and the support offered to the family. Ruburt’s very early poetry offended Father Boyle, who objected to its themes, and who burned his books on the fall of Rome, so he had more than a hypothetical feeling about such issues. Many of those fears originated long before the sessions, of course, and before he realized that there was any alternative at all between, say, conventional religious beliefs and complete disbelief in any nature of divinity.

Both the nightmare experience and the dream were partially triggered by our last session (on March 4), of course, and served to show Ruburt why he had begun to cut down on some (underlined) of his own psychic experience, inspiration, and expression—a policy reflected in the repressed nature of bodily expression.

(Bill was still alternately sleeping and preening himself beside me on the couch, as he’d been doing all through the session. His coat is glossy and beautiful. I admired the tender loving care with which he addressed himself to each portion of his body.