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As far as you are personally concerned, Joseph, you became alarmed by what seemed to you to be certain implications when you carried Ruburt in the bathroom. You feared this made it too easy for him. You were afraid that then he would not try to resume making it on his own. And you also did not trust your own body to perform adequately under such a situation—hence your own personal discomfort.

The chair made it easier for Ruburt than it had been earlier. It made him more a part of the process. You both understood that situation rather clearly at certain levels. As far as his condition is concerned, its most pivotal aspects are being dealt with: the mechanics of walking and motion. Again, the body knows what it is doing. It is as if the springs or inner mechanics of motion had been tightly held back, so that as they are being relieved there is considerable inequality, unpredictable springing motion—a loosening here and a tightening there momentarily, as if before he had been too tightly wound (deliberately).

Tell your body that you do indeed want it to feel comfortable now. Before, you did not know whether or not you wanted it capable enough to lift Ruburt, for you were afraid of setting up an unfortunate pattern of behavior. This should take care of your own difficulties.