“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Pause.) Ruburt’s depression-part of today represented, again, his recognition and expression of feelings that before were to a large degree buried in the symptoms, or translated into them.

Such expressions do not mean backsliding on his part. They should be recognized for what they are, and he should (underlined) definitely express them to you when he feels that way. They are momentary—or at least having expressed themselves in a certain rhythm they then give way to other positive experience. This does not mean that he should concentrate upon them, of course. This period of time is leading you both away from black or white patterns of thought to some degree, so that you can consider the aspects of your lives, bothered less by absolutes. It is certainly time to look at your prerogatives, as I have stressed. Love-making, expressions of loving support and encouragement should come higher up on your lists on both of your parts than before.

Ruburt receives esthetic pleasure from looking at the clean rugs or windows—a pleasure which actually encourages his creativity. The same applies of course to you and the yard.

(Pause.) Art provides its own services to the individual, whether or not it appears to be utilitarian. Ruburt’s own inspiration operates with its own rhythms: his Stonehenge poem, or whatever. In between, while it may seem he is not being as creative, inner work is being done that will later appear in a new burst of creativity. This applies to long or short projects.

(9:28.) It is very important that he understand that. His creativity, in other words, is renewing itself now. (Long pause.) An animal in Ruburt’s physical condition would simply be resting, perceiving body alterations and odd states with patient acquiescence, doing what it could physically and forgetting about the rest, trustful in the body’s capacities to heal itself. The more Ruburt relaxes the quicker his body will show the improvements that are now developing. Certain attitudes should be clearly expressed. There is no need condemning the attitudes he will be inspired by on both the long and short projects. He will receive new insights and inspirations. Now he becomes frightened that he will not. You can help him there as he discusses his feelings. He depends upon creativity, for example, as you do, to provide a more or less steady source of enjoyment, excitement, personal accomplishment—not to mention livelihood —and as per last evening’s session, creativity operates in ways that may appear uncertain.

(Long pause.) Tonight’s assurances in that area should themselves encourage him. Absolute thinking can often lead to dead-ended thoughts or plans. His attitudes toward the medical profession (pause) are indeed changing—not that he sees medical practices in any more favorable and overall light, but that he recognizes that absolutism is no answer either. Nor should such decisions be made through the auspices of personal fear. There are degrees of participation, for example. You should be free to make your decisions with a fairly clear mind.

Ruburt thinks that way fairly easily, so let him use the same kind of thought with his physical and psychic mobility, mentally imagining that he is opening inner rooms, discovering inner territory that has remained unclaimed or going back into delightful rooms, filled with motion that he had momentarily forgotten.

(Frank had an idea about placing one of our old chairs on rollers so Jane could be wheeled right beside the john to slide over onto it while she was having walking difficulties. He went for his tools and supplies, returned in an hour, and the two of us spent much of the afternoon making such a vehicle. It worked—but barely, for it was too high for the john, and had no cushion for Jane’s backside comfort.