“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(She slept well last night, and got up at about 10 AM. She’s felt somewhat better today. I had a snack with her while she ate breakfast, and tearfully she said she couldn’t blame me if I felt I could only stand so much, and wanted to go my own way. She said, as she has before recently, that she would try to get along on her own, and hire someone to take care of her. I’ve thought of trying to find another place to paint, especially for the larger works I plan to do, but not of leaving her. It’s true that my patience has been sorely tested of late, and, as I told her, I feel that I’ve done a lot during our relationship to help her and go along with her ideas.

(Frank Longwell also visited today—before Jim did, as a matter of fact —and helped Jane experiment with certain exercises for her legs in the bathroom. He explained the procedure if Jane goes to the hospital in Sayre. Jim, on the other hand, is in favor of Jane seeking local treatment. This would be easiest, of course, providing the treatment is equal. Frank thinks the clinic in Sayre could offer more services at once. He said Jane doesn’t have rheumatoid arthritis or thyroid trouble. Jim said he couldn’t comment on Jane’s situation from a medical standpoint, except to say her eyes per se are okay.

You are free-lancers, so that you do not deal with a regular, specified financial state, of course. To that degree your livelihood depends upon many elements. You are never certain of your income’s exact amount per month, say, as you would be if you had salaries. The very nature of the work that you are involved in implies uncertainty—and this aside from psychic activity. That is, writing and painting themselves embark you upon uncertain routes. Again, they are not products with known specifications and measurements. The psychic work brings in a further extension, both of a do-it-yourself element, and the creative uncertainty.