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(Jane also tried walking with the table with Frank’s help, as she had with me the day before, but once again couldn’t quite get up on her feet. She did better, though. She also tried the library today, as Seth had suggested, but with “nil” results, but didn’t try the energy-healing exercise yet. She plans to keep at both. She did have an unclear image while trying for the library, and discovered it was a bit scary. Yet while trying the library she felt “relaxed and panicky at the same time.”

People react differently to stress. Ruburt’s reaction to stressful situations was a repressive one: he did indeed often feel in a steady state of some alarm. Because of other beliefs it seemed that it was not safe to relax. The applied tension itself in that framework came to imply a kind of support. It seemed to offer a dependable framework to keep him from going too far in one direction or the other (intently), and was used as a cushion against the other uncertainties in your lives. The panic he feels in some particular kind of relaxation episodes does indeed involve the psychological feelings that were buried within that releasing tension.

(9:33.) Initially, as the tension releases it releases along with it the buried panic about which it was formed (long pause). It is important that Ruburt realize that. He, again, also learned to identify with tension, so there can be some alarm as he lets it dissolve. This only applies to certain periods of relaxation, however, that are connected with the eventual freedom of the most vital motions of the body.

(Long pause.) Now, regardless of many objections to the contrary, Ruburt’s condition still has served your own ends as well as his—and into the present. To an extent they have served as their own stabilizers, giving you both excuses and protections from events of perhaps an intrusive fashion, such as the interviews or guests, or even strangers at the door. (Long pause.)In a fashion they produced their own kind of certainty. They also reflected—to some degree, now—your own perhaps more subsidiary beliefs that it was not safe to relax, or that spontaneity might lead to further uncertainties. It is not necessary that you learn to gush endlessly about your love for Ruburt, but it is important that you do express it, and you have indeed been better in that area. Your joint acknowledgement of your love, however, vastly increases the feelings of safety in your lives, and the love-making involving touch is very reminiscent of the childhood state involving freedom, when children rejoice in touching themselves and other objects and so forth.

I hope that what I said involving relaxation and panic is understood, and that you help Ruburt understand himself in those circumstances.