“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(She slept well last night, and got up at about 10 AM. She’s felt somewhat better today. I had a snack with her while she ate breakfast, and tearfully she said she couldn’t blame me if I felt I could only stand so much, and wanted to go my own way. She said, as she has before recently, that she would try to get along on her own, and hire someone to take care of her. I’ve thought of trying to find another place to paint, especially for the larger works I plan to do, but not of leaving her. It’s true that my patience has been sorely tested of late, and, as I told her, I feel that I’ve done a lot during our relationship to help her and go along with her ideas.

(Jim Adams visited today with some sample black frames for her reading glasses, and repeated to Jane what I’d quoted him as saying his friend Dr. Werner had said about Jim’s description of Jane’s condition. Interesting, for I think Jim phrased some of his quotes somewhat differently to Jane than he had to me earlier this week —although I think the gist of the remarks is pretty much the same. But Jane and I have trained ourselves to try to recall accurately what others say, and we are aware of how information can be distorted as it’s passed on. We told Jim we haven’t made any firm decision about seeking medical help, but will when the glasses situation is taken care of. In the meantime, Jane is getting used to the idea, should we do anything about it.

(Jane also tried walking with the table with Frank’s help, as she had with me the day before, but once again couldn’t quite get up on her feet. She did better, though. She also tried the library today, as Seth had suggested, but with “nil” results, but didn’t try the energy-healing exercise yet. She plans to keep at both. She did have an unclear image while trying for the library, and discovered it was a bit scary. Yet while trying the library she felt “relaxed and panicky at the same time.”