“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jim Adams visited today with some sample black frames for her reading glasses, and repeated to Jane what I’d quoted him as saying his friend Dr. Werner had said about Jim’s description of Jane’s condition. Interesting, for I think Jim phrased some of his quotes somewhat differently to Jane than he had to me earlier this week —although I think the gist of the remarks is pretty much the same. But Jane and I have trained ourselves to try to recall accurately what others say, and we are aware of how information can be distorted as it’s passed on. We told Jim we haven’t made any firm decision about seeking medical help, but will when the glasses situation is taken care of. In the meantime, Jane is getting used to the idea, should we do anything about it.

(Frank Longwell also visited today—before Jim did, as a matter of fact —and helped Jane experiment with certain exercises for her legs in the bathroom. He explained the procedure if Jane goes to the hospital in Sayre. Jim, on the other hand, is in favor of Jane seeking local treatment. This would be easiest, of course, providing the treatment is equal. Frank thinks the clinic in Sayre could offer more services at once. He said Jane doesn’t have rheumatoid arthritis or thyroid trouble. Jim said he couldn’t comment on Jane’s situation from a medical standpoint, except to say her eyes per se are okay.

(Long pause.) To some extent it means that you try to live your lives in accord with a philosophy not yet completed, methods not yet completely achieved or stated, and this of course involves you with uncertainty. Ruburt for example feels obligated to tell correspondents with health difficulties to see the established authorities, certainly those with serious illnesses. (Long pause.) He suggests that others follow their own intuitional material, while at the same time holding on to the established frameworks upon which most people depend.

(Long pause.) He has also tried to follow our material, to trust it to the best of his ability. In important ways at certain levels, while the proof may be in the pudding, the dish of pudding is not nearly filled (with some humor).

The paragraph he read concerning your enduring love for him this evening struck him deeply. (Long pause.) There is no doubt that for many reasons given he feared the dependability of your love (long pause, eyes closed), if his actions did not please you. That fear had its roots in his childhood, and of course in the male-oriented culture. To some extent then he felt even the safety of your relationship threatened when you became irritated, say, with Prentice. He became frightened in particular when he feared that his relationship with Prentice might make you ill.

People react differently to stress. Ruburt’s reaction to stressful situations was a repressive one: he did indeed often feel in a steady state of some alarm. Because of other beliefs it seemed that it was not safe to relax. The applied tension itself in that framework came to imply a kind of support. It seemed to offer a dependable framework to keep him from going too far in one direction or the other (intently), and was used as a cushion against the other uncertainties in your lives. The panic he feels in some particular kind of relaxation episodes does indeed involve the psychological feelings that were buried within that releasing tension.

(9:33.) Initially, as the tension releases it releases along with it the buried panic about which it was formed (long pause). It is important that Ruburt realize that. He, again, also learned to identify with tension, so there can be some alarm as he lets it dissolve. This only applies to certain periods of relaxation, however, that are connected with the eventual freedom of the most vital motions of the body.

All of the issues I have mentioned—love-making, the energy exercises, poetry and so forth—lead toward a therapeutic situation (pause), toward the realization that expression itself is safe, and serve to remind him that creativity’s uncertainty is itself highly creative, providing its own safety within a context of exuberant expression. It is important then that he begin using his psychic abilities to help heal his own body, and he will begin doing that as he understands that it is indeed safer to let that tension go, and to free his psychic and physical motion.