“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The day after the last session I wrote down a question for Seth. I’ve thought about it often since last Thursday, then: Is Jane going to have to make known to herself consciously every bit of information about her symptoms before she recovers? I had the question partly because of something she’d said herself before the last session—and which I’ve now forgotten—and partly because I didn’t believe that most people were able to deal with such procedures in their daily lives. Indeed, they wouldn’t have the time or the talent to make consciously known to themselves all the details of their challenges that had made them ill to begin with. As a society we’re generally not organized that way to begin with.

(We had a discussion about my questions, and I expressed pretty definitely the emotional charge I’ve accumulated over the years about the whole affair. Jane said several times that she understood my feelings, but that at the same time I was misunderstanding what she’d written that day [Friday]. I could see that she was disappointed in my reactions to her day’s work, and she said as much.

(The swollen condition of her feet still concerned me, although I’ve kept in mind Seth’s material on that situation and feel better about it. I’ve managed to turn my thoughts away from such worries rather successfully lately, yet when they do return they can’t but help cause concern, so conditioned are we toward anything unusual about the body’s behavior representing a state of illness or unease. I only hoped Seth was correct about her feet, for indeed they’re more enlarged than ever, especially the right foot.

(The evening was quite warm and very pleasant. The back porch door was wide open in the gathering dusk; even though we’ve passed the longest day of the year now, it was still not dark.)