“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The day after the last session I wrote down a question for Seth. I’ve thought about it often since last Thursday, then: Is Jane going to have to make known to herself consciously every bit of information about her symptoms before she recovers? I had the question partly because of something she’d said herself before the last session—and which I’ve now forgotten—and partly because I didn’t believe that most people were able to deal with such procedures in their daily lives. Indeed, they wouldn’t have the time or the talent to make consciously known to themselves all the details of their challenges that had made them ill to begin with. As a society we’re generally not organized that way to begin with.

(I thought, then, that much of the time most people simply get well through an unwitting trust in their bodies to heal themselves. Obviously this didn’t always apply, since some people became chronically ill, or died, or suffered devastating illnesses —but for the most part whatever helpings they managed to achieve came about through subconscious mental and bodily processes. If and when they worked out solutions to their problems, they did so quite unknowingly. In retrospect I believe this question was triggered by remarks Jane made about insights she’d achieved through her manifesto from the Sinful Self.

(For the last two days Jane hasn’t worked on her paper from the Sinful Self —the first break she’s taken from it since she began to receive it 13 days ago, on June 17. She’d read me Friday’s work that same evening, and I had some questions about it, although it’s very difficult to formulate questions while listening to something the first time, and without having a written version to refer to. Yet as I listened to her I felt that at times the Sinful Self seemed to almost be trying to put the blame for her symptoms off on other portions of the personality—or let’s say that that was one of the feelings I had.

(We had a discussion about my questions, and I expressed pretty definitely the emotional charge I’ve accumulated over the years about the whole affair. Jane said several times that she understood my feelings, but that at the same time I was misunderstanding what she’d written that day [Friday]. I could see that she was disappointed in my reactions to her day’s work, and she said as much.

(My viewpoint was that it was impossible for me not to have strong feelings about the situation, even though—as I said—I agreed that her paper was a highly creative piece of work, that it augured well for the future, and that it was so far easily the best material we’d gotten on the symptom affair. Yet I still felt questions and statements going around in my head as we retired—and as is often the case in such situations I wondered if I’d gone too far in my reactions, and needlessly interfered with Jane’s attempts to probe into and understand a most difficult challenge. My question, above, was an outgrowth of my own feelings and questionings. I read it to her as we sat for tonight’s session, and she agreed it was a good one.)

(Today I did order 8 oz. of DMSO gel, responding to an ad in the local paper Saturday. We’d expected to see a long article on DMSO in the paper, written by Peggy Gallagher, but it wasn’t printed: Over the phone today Peg told Jane the article was put off until next weekend because of space limitations. Peg has interviewed many local doctors—and others—about the analgesic properties of DMSO, and we want to read the article before trying the product ourselves. But in the meantime the order is going through, so we’ll be prepared. Much caution will be necessary, I told Jane.

(Jane had no direct questions for Seth, as usual, she said, unless he wanted to comment upon the DMSO question. She has been sleeping pretty well for the most part these days, but has had a great deal of soreness in her arms [and some spontaneous jerking movements accompanied by shooting pains; it seems the arms are lengthening somewhat]. The arm discomfort makes it quite difficult for her to move from either of her chairs to the bed and/or couch, however.