“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Eventually, and very reluctantly, since I considered it a sign of a major failure, I ended up carrying her physically from the john to her chair—rather awkwardly but not with as much trouble as I’d anticipated, yet also feeling a bit of a strain in my lower back. I am still aware of a muscular sensation there, although I slept well. Jane was much relieved that I could move her, and surprised, but I had my doubts about being able to do that on a longer-term basis: I dared not endanger my own physical condition lest I be unable to take care of her otherwise, regardless of how poorly or with what ill grace I might do that.

Adams mentioned that actually Ruburt’s eyes responded rather quickly to the various lenses. He also mentioned that when prisms were used the resulting activity on the muscles often led people to complain about dizziness, nausea, and so forth. That entire muscular group has been trying to improve itself of late, and at such times Ruburt does feel disoriented with changes in head pressure, balance, depth perception. Those sensations frighten him. The body understands those situations, while in a state of fear they can arouse new distrust.

(It’s the next day as I finish typing the session. The hope continues to manifest itself, and both of us feel much better. I carried Jane in the bathroom last night before bed, and this morning when she got up after 10 AM. Both times worked well. Although I feel a minimal sensation in the back, it has lessened considerably since Seth’s comments about its true origins. Now when I think about the back I remind myself that I can find Jane “as light as a feather.” I anticipate no more problems in that area.