“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(After last night’s session I was so upset I couldn’t talk about it, nor did Jane ask me anything about the contents of the session. I was upset because I felt it was all true, and because I’d felt like interrupting constantly as Seth was giving his material. I wanted to protest, to agree, and to disagree most vehemently. I also couldn’t see how we were going to get through these difficult moments.

Your love is large enough for each other to withstand any natural expression of aggression or resentment on either of your parts, as mentioned earlier. Because of Ruburt’s background (long pause), he feared abandonment often. It seemed to him that he did not offer what most men expected of women, so that if he wanted a good lifelong companion he had to tread lightly. He felt that many of his own characteristics were considered disadvantageous in a man-woman relationship.

At the same time, he does indeed need the expressions of love on your part, as you need his. He identifies strongly with his work, so that there is often, however, a misunderstanding on his part, so that if you criticize, say, any portion of the work, or his handling of it with Prentice or whatever, he often takes that as a criticism of himself.

Ruburt at his end performed in the same manner: how would he react to your reaction?—and again, regardless of what either of you may think at certain times. That kind of behavior will not give you therapeutic results.

(8:38.) You were quite correct, of course, in reminding him that his eyes themselves were healthy. Planning for a small group is (underlined) constructive, and should be encouraged. The planning alone has some beneficial result, since in his mind he already sees himself with some considerable improvement.

(“Can you offer a few words of encouragement about his movements in the bathroom? I carried him last night and this morning, and I can feel a strain in my back.”)

The strain is a result of your own attitudes, of course—of a burden being applied that should or need not be. It seems there is nothing wrong with your back. It is your attitude that hurts. And that also speaks to Ruburt to express your own feelings: you cannot depend on me to do this all the time. The same statement was made when you carried Ruburt to the car. In exaggerated form, Ruburt makes the same statement of his own with his own symptoms—that is, they also express attitudes. Theoretically, your love alone could sweep the discomfort away, so that Ruburt felt as light as a feather. They express your reluctance, of course, and outrage against the situation.

Again, help Ruburt trust his feelings of relaxation, and trust your own. End of session. A fond good evening.