“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“I almost have the feeling that you’re not supposed to have a session tonight,” Jane said at 8:19. “It’s one of those things where you’re so relaxed you shouldn’t interrupt it—but if I don’t have a session then I’m afraid it’ll be a cop-out. You can’t win....”

(She was indeed very relaxed, sitting as she was with her head bowed, leaning forward on the couch. Leonard Yaudes had just left. Today Jane had worked a little on page 6 of her “Manifesto from the Sinful Self”—a long dissertation from that entity that she’d started to get yesterday afternoon. [She’d slept ‘till noon.] The material had begun to flow quite effortlessly because of her concern over what I’d written in my notes for Monday’s session, about her being unable to take care of herself physically any longer. As soon as she’d read that passage on Tuesday, she’d begun to talk about it, to question me, so I knew it had struck a sticky point.

(I hadn’t deliberately planned that those notes would do that, yet in retrospect I was glad they had—especially in the unprecedented response Jane was getting from her Sinful Self. Her paper was very well done, and would make fascinating material in an autobiography, for instance. The Sinful Self’s material is too long and complicated to describe here, except to say that it contains the Sinful Self’s own view of reality and its relationship to Jane’s background and work, it’s regrets, its defensive attitudes, its questions, and its genuine puzzlement that man has for so long —perhaps for most of history, indeed—persisted in the creation of and reliance upon such entities as the Sinful Self.

(Nor was Jane finished with her dissertation. A unique situation. I told her, feeling that only good could come out of such a dialogue between parts of the overall self or personality. It will be very interesting to see the results. I wondered how often such a clear-cut dialogue or exchange was on record as having taken place between such various portions of the self. A search of the psychological literature would be very interesting.

(Jane has also had some very vivid dreams in connection with this material, although she hasn’t written them down and actually cannot recall much about any of them. They’ve involved healing, however, and in one of them she even expected to wake up healed—but found herself moving slowly on the bed as usual. I’ll attach a copy of the Sinful Self’s material to this session if Jane ever types it in duplicate. She’s done practically no typing for days now because her arms have been very sore.

(The day before yesterday we received the first copy from Prentice-Hall of God of Jane. Today I picked up at the office for her the new reading glasses Jim Adams prescribed for her. [He’s out of town.] They seem to work well for her. Although she can read much more comfortably now, she still has the double vision. A note: It appears that the family of raccoons inhabiting our fireplace chimney may have left—or so it seems.

(I told Jane at 8:39 that I didn’t know whether or not Seth was through with his Prentice-Hall material, and she said that we’d gotten to the heart of it. In answer to my question about material in the last session, she said that yes, she still felt to some degree that she had to protect her work from me and my feelings about Prentice-Hall. She continued that she felt that my feelings about Prentice-Hall had influenced my own feelings about Mass Events, and so they have. She then said that she also thought my feelings about Prentice-Hall had influenced my feelings about Seth’s next book more than my feelings about her did.

The main issues with which the Sinful Self was concerned were focused most clearly in Mass Events and God of Jane, since more than the other books they represent a direct confrontation “attacking” the very legitimacy of the entire concept of sin and evil, insisting more dramatically on the good intent of man’s basic impulses.

(“No. I guess not,” I said after some thought. I finally decided Jane wanted the rest, since she/Seth was calling for a short session.)

(9:14 PM. It’s Friday evening as I type this. Seth’s suggestion that Jane ask the Sinful Self for its comments of the female sex and sin were very acute—for today Jane has received several pages of material from the Sinful Self on that subject. Again, well done, and not finished yet. Right now she’s watching a disaster movie—The Poseidon Adventure—as I finish work.)