“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I finished typing last Monday’s session just before we sat for this one. At my request Jane read the page of notes I’d attached to the end of the session. I didn’t ask that she or Seth comment on the notes, but at least I’d made it possible for either one to do so. Among other things I’d written that Monday’s session was even better than I’d thought it was.

Ruburt took a portion of himself into protective custody—not wishing to do that portion any damage, but simply to restrain it, to teach it discipline. Some people take portions of themselves, again, as hostages, restraining such portions with the idea of punishing them for imagined wrongs, or for actions not understood.

Some of this is difficult to clarify, because affairs are not really all that clearly cut (emphatically). (Long pause.) When united, the intellect and intuitions do well. The intellect, however, wants the emotions to be perhaps more respectable than they are, neater, held better in check, well-dressed. It wants approval from the world. In Ruburt’s case, it began to worry that the exuberant, spontaneous, emotional parts of the self would allow their search for truth and creativity to get out of bounds, bringing some danger, perhaps, rather than honor—or at the very least scorn and criticism.

At any given time, then, he may not feel it right to relax, because he has thus-and-thus a chore to perform, or because of the hour, or for any other reasons that will all serve to hide the fact that he is afraid of relaxing. He thinks he fears relaxing because then he will do nothing—but instead he is afraid of letting go because he fears he will go too far, and put himself in an unsafe position in the world. Some of your own earlier attitudes should help you relate to that kind of rationale.