“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

His overconscientiousness as a young person, and his intense concern—overconcern—at times with the literal “truth” of any given situation, is and was largely his reaction to his mother’s habitual, often mischievous lying pattern. He had not realized that earlier.

His mother’s pathological lying meant that Ruburt had to assess and reassess any given situation as a child. He determined not to be malicious as his mother was. His anxiousness led to the most severe examinations of conscience, such examinations being a recommended Catholic practice.

When memories come concerning his background, then these can be used to provide a necessary feedback system. Ruburt’s feelings of panic can then be understood as originating in response to a highly complicated, intense early life, and in concrete situations. There is no doubt that he was mistreated. Ruburt’s mind was concerned with the larger framework, however, in which his mother’s life existed. He could not be satisfied with an answer like, “That is what life is,” or with a simplistic denouncement of man’s basic nature.

The sessions themselves work to activate many different levels of activity, and to provide source material. Many of Ruburt’s current attitudes, for example, will at least make more sense to him as he sees that they originated in response to situations against which a child had no recourse. Ruburt did not tell anyone about his mother’s lying, for example, not until he was in his teens, and he was too ashamed of how his mother often treated him to tell anyone.