“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This morning Jane slept until noon again, as she’d done last Monday. She slept well until 2:30 AM, but had a rough night from then on, often sore, and tossing and turning.

(At the same time, on the occasions when she’d come half awake, Jane told herself that she remembered Seth’s material on expressing previously buried fears, and made strong efforts to go along with it by letting the feelings surface where she could encounter them. So I think that my not calling her—out of sympathy, say—had been the right course to follow.

(Jane had no questions for Seth. I told her I had lots of them, but had been refraining from asking them for the most part until we see what we can learn from the material. Some are personal, some more theoretical and/or general. I haven’t written down any of them.

(Now I did mention to Jane perhaps the overriding question I have, and have often puzzled about: the intensity of her personality’s response to the idea of the Sinful Self. Though, as I said, I didn’t think of her Sinful Self as something entirely separate from other portions of her personality, but as a part of them. Why didn’t the “Sinful Self” get the message that it’s gone too far, and back off at least somewhat so that the whole personality had room to breathe—to begin physical recovery, in other words? Its actions, as they are, are clearly self-defeating. There are many fascinating but serious questions here. Jane agreed.

(I said that I was quite aware that Seth had recently said that all actions are eventually redeemed—but what about in the meantime? How does one live until that happens? As I discussed the question Jane said she began to feel Seth around. I certainly hadn’t expected him to go into the question tonight; in fact, I’d come very close to not mentioning it at all at this time.)

(And here we have an excellent capsule answer as to why Jane has grown progressively worse since beginning Mass Events—see her paper of last December about her unease over that book and God of Jane—and why her symptoms have become even worse as the publication date of Mass Events draws near. Now it’s supposed to be in May.)

(9:18 PM. Jane’s delivery had been much faster than on other occasions lately. Note that she also needed much less time to go into the session. My question turned her on, she said. I think it may turn out to be a key question in our search.)