“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“Do you want to wait for a minute, and get something on it?” Jane asked.

(“Well, taxes come up this week,” Jane told me, “and every time they do your stomach starts up. You’re sure the pendulum said there wasn’t any connection?”

(“Who knows? It told me once that this time taxes weren’t involved. I didn’t keep asking it. The best answer I got was when I laid Through My Eyes aside to work on Mass Events I felt bad about doing that. Not that I resented working on Mass Events. I wanted to do both at the same time, and figured I couldn’t manage that. So I felt guilty—I thought—about not concentrating on Seth’s book. Painting wasn’t involved either....”

(Then at 10:09:) Now: Right now, self-disapproval is involved. You disapprove of yourself because you feel poorly—and because you do not approve of the basic feelings that are behind the difficulty.

You do not approve of yourself because you think you should be making money “on your own.” You do not approve of yourself because you think you should be a better artist, or a better writer—but in any case, you do not let yourself appreciate the self that you are.

(Pause.) This self-disapproval does not hound you more than other men. It bothers you less than it does most people, for your own understanding has made inroads. Try to be more compassionate toward yourself and your feelings. Do not judge your feelings. The disapproval causes you to bury them. Out in the open, you can handle them easily.

Now: You would be better off saying to yourself: “Everyone has their foibles. Every time the taxes come up I feel poorly, but no one is perfect. To hell with it.” That attitude would be better than disapproving of yourself because of the difficulty. Do you follow me?