“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The second scene takes place in a large office building that represents the world and its usual pursuits. Ruburt is offered a rather lucrative and fairly prestigious position. When his prospective employer sets a time for a meeting, however, by telephone, Ruburt cannot hear him clearly and so must double-check. This simply means that the voice of the world did not come through clearly as far as it offered other vocational opportunities. Ruburt knew he could gain sufficient-enough prestige by using his abilities in other directions; by being, say, a director of a gallery, or by accepting any of a number of positions, such as teaching, that had been offered him in the past.

And in the past, he toyed with some of those ideas and positions. When he tried teaching he began to get ill, for he was afraid that he would settle for the respectable-enough prestige it afforded, give in and stop his writing and other pursuits. He was in his late thirties, and sometimes tempted to do so.

The fact that you have been of such help shows how much you have learned, for in the past you did sometimes sabotage his efforts—not at all lately —because of your own distrust of impulses, and because the situation to some extent served you also.