“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I described Jane’s very relaxed states today in the notes for the regular, 856th session, from which the material to follow is taken. During her periods of relaxation she gained a number of insights about herself, her challenges and physical condition. She became especially aware of her own impulses and fears of what would happen if she gave in to those impulses. They all added up to a steady barrage of self-criticism and fear of not writing, of perhaps doing the dishes instead, or cleaning the house, of making more work for me, of time spent answering the mail—whatever it might be. I tried to encourage her to relax more often, by saying to hell with whatever bugged her at the moment, as she did with good success today.

(I added that the more spontaneous she was about doing what she wanted at any given time—in other words, following her natural impulses—the more writing and painting she’d find herself able to do. As Seth remarked in a recent session, the relaxed muscle is able to do far more than the tense one, or words to that effect.

(9:10.) A private note: what you want to do, ideally speaking, is the best thing to do.

When he thinks that he must do such and such, must prove his worth by sitting at his desk, then he lays a heavy hand upon those same impulses. He is afraid of doing anything else. That might show he is not “working.” His creative and psychic abilities emerge precisely when he is relaxed. So do his normal physical ones. You were of great help this morning, allowing him to talk out the situation at the time.

Do not try to back over backwards over the tax issue—hence your back problem (today). That also involves your joint ideas of work. You feel guilty about taxes, because you feel that you have not contributed enough financially—therefore doubly angry that the money must be taken from Ruburt, and so forth.