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SESSION 853 (DELETED)

(A copy of this session is also being placed in the deleted notebook, since I’d like it to be placed under both categories.) I think it contains some excellent general material that, I told Jane, I was afreaid wouldn’t be seen by anyone if it were filed exclusively under private material.

(Neither of us had questions for Seth in particular. That is, I said, “I could ask 5,000 questions, but I haven’t planned any for tonight.” Jane said we could have “just a question-and-answer Seth book”—one made up of just those ingredients, without the formal session format. “But the publisher would want it organized according to subject matter, or presented in some orderly way,” I replied, whereupon she wrinkled her face at the work this might involve: “But you could do all that after we got the material....”

(Actually, this evening’s session grew out of several insights Jane had given voice to in recent days, and osme relaxation effects that had followed several of those. “But right now I’m just waiting,” she said impatiently at 9:40 PM, after we’d been sitting since 9:25 or so. “It makes me so mad. Here I was all set to go earlier.” Then she amended: “It makes me mad because I feel like I’m in an odd in-between subjective state. It isn’t comfortable—I want to be one thing or the other, maybe....”

I have given material on that before. To some extent, then, Ruburt became afraid of his own creativity, and so did you. In Ruburt’s case the fear was greater, until it seemed sometimes that if he succeeded in his work he would succeed at some peril: you might be put in an unpleasant light, or he might become a fanatic, displaying those despicable, feminine hysterical qualities. (With much humor:) I hope this session benefits you both. End of session, and a fond good evening.

(10:35 PM. Jane’s trances and delivery had been good. “I didn’t know he was going to do that,” she said after I told her it was an excellent session. “Maybe that’s why I felt so uncomfortable before the session. Now I feel exhausted. I could go right to bed, but I won’t....”

(Jane said she couldn’t really describe them now, but she had “great emotional feelings” when she delivered the part of the session about my thinking that selling work made me a prostitute. “Some gargantuan feelings there, full of humor,” she said.

(She laughed. “You are so strange,” she said. “Here you won’t go to the marketplace, but you think of saving all of these private sessions for posterity, to give them to the world. You’re very close-mouthed: you don’t blab our personal business, as you put it, but you’d do that.... Instead, I see us when I’m 80 and you’re 90, out in the backyard, burning it all.”

(Yet she easily agreed that this evening’s session, whether private or not, cast much light on the regular, or published material, adding depths of understanding and background information.)