“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(10:22.) Your side bothers you when you want to be on the right side of yourself, as in the old term, getting up on the right side of the bed. In other words, you are perturbed over what is the proper direction for you to take—not trusting yourself to make the proper decision automatically, but wanting to force a quick conscious decision so that you will know what to do, and have it over with.

(Pause.) Your dog dream (of March 31, 1979) also somewhat symbolizes that dilemma: do you go with your head, forcing a conscious decision, or do you go with your instincts, symbolized by the dog’s form? The question itself causes the dilemma of the dream—that is, the separation of the two in your mind, instinct and reason, causes the uneasy confrontation. There is no separation, of course, only a seeming one, for again, the mind’s conscious processes are spontaneous, and the body’s instincts are highly disciplined, so there is no need to vacillate between one side of the question or the other.

In your mind, the left side represents the unconscious portions of the personality. Do you follow?

The situation with Ruburt is such that conditions like the hand are transitory, as with other conditions that bothered him and left. Do you remember them?—

I do not want to get into a long discussion on Ruburt this evening—but (with much humor) I will bring you an update shortly of a comprehensive nature.

In the second dream (on April 4, 1979), Bill Macdonnel, whom you do not consider an excellent artist, reflects your own sometimes confused feelings about what might have happened had you devoted your work primarily and exclusively to art, or played the artist, as Bill does. The work, however, would not have been right for you, but upside down in a fashion, because with your knowledge before, say, our sessions, your particular blend of psychic abilities and writing abilities would not have developed; your painting would have lacked, in a way that would be quite noticeable to you. In the dream you realize that your way is better.

Your brother (Loren) represents strong beliefs that you had and identified with, that could have been very limiting. You avoided them, or rather, left them behind. You do have a kind of prominence now, and your work is on a different kind of public mural.

The younger people represent versions of yourself, who wonder at your prominence in a different field, but you do not care. Your paintings now, and your best ones, you see, will evolve as a result of the psychic understanding you are learning. You cannot compare artists, for each is gifted in a different way.

(“So do I. Good night.”

(10:41 PM. “Gee, that wasn’t long,” Jane said, looking at the clock. “I told myself before the session that you’re supposed to identify with your creative self, so I just said I’d go along with whatever happened in the session. I didn’t care what it was, I’d do it.”