“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(As I mentioned doing at the close of last Saturday night’s deleted session, today I paid our NY State and Federal income taxes a few days ahead of time, hoping the action would contribute to my sense of freedom, and perhaps Jane’s too. I’ve felt pretty good today, although a trace of the panicky feeling returned after supper this evening.

(Both of us have been rereading Seth’s own resolutions for the New Year frequently, as given on January 1, 1979. Before tonight’s session Jane read over the questions I’ve written out, derived from my reading of the 367th session. We discussed them briefly. I could list many more, but probably won’t. I still don’t think Seth would want to spend much time discussing that old material in any detail, since he’s said many times that focusing on what was wrong in the past is negative and self-defeating.

(Starting yesterday, Jane began her walking exercises with the typing table by using a pillow under her arms. This has the effect of raising her posture an inch or so, and seemingly has produced immediate results in terms of a much-improved posture, better balanced and freer. She must have been ready to make the suggestion about the pillow, we thought. Already she’s talking about using something on the table to help her stand even straighter. Her devotion to the exercises is certainly showing results.

(Willy kept bugging me as I tried to make notes for this session—sitting as he does close to me on the couch, wanting to stare at me and be petted at the same time, while I try to accomplish something. “I hope Seth doesn’t talk too loud,” Jane said as we waited for him to come through, “or I might lose that tooth.” It was loose.)

(Interesting, that this afternoon, the 9th, we were visited by Marian Merrill. whom we haven’t talked with for perhaps a year. She dropped in for a visit, bringing a pudding cake and a Christmas card to her from an old friend-classmate of Marian’s; Marian had seen her friend last year for the first time in 15 years. On the card the feminine friend asked Marian to tell Jane that “the books” had changed her life for the better. Marian had laughed and said that now she’s going to read the books also, to see what had so moved her friend. Marian knows of the Seth thing.

(A note: Seth’s material reminded me of his comments in the deleted 371st session for October 11, 1967. I read it last night; Seth answered my questions about what he sees when he looks at me, both as himself, and through Jane’s eyes. Very interesting, and material both of us had forgotten many years ago.)

(10:40 PM. Jane herself had just enough time to comment on the brevity of the session when Seth returned:)

(Jane has written an account of her dream. It concerned fur coats, among other things, and she’s been getting flashes of understanding about it throughout the day.)