“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Let us look—once again—back into the past. Your own psychic abilities, and Ruburt’s, saved you (as I remarked after supper) at the time of your physical difficulties. I must insist once more that you take probabilities into consideration.

You saw in your parents the first signs of illness and age as you thought of those things. You were into your 40’s, and felt your own abilities still somehow unchallenged, not fully used. You fell ill. (Pause.) The two of you from your first meeting actually responded largely to portions of yourselves unmanifest then—to portions of yourselves that you are only now becoming. You sensed the shape of the probability that is now your life, that is now your life together (intently). And from that probable future in your past, your creative abilities were accelerated.

(9:50.) The York Beach affair happened, Ruburt’s Idea Construction experience, and the beginning of the sessions. Those events were necessary, or events very much like them, if, granting probabilities, the two of you were eager to have years of satisfying life and work. You were both growing very bitter, your idealism turning into a disillusionment that could most easily have turned into despair.