“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You saw in your parents the first signs of illness and age as you thought of those things. You were into your 40’s, and felt your own abilities still somehow unchallenged, not fully used. You fell ill. (Pause.) The two of you from your first meeting actually responded largely to portions of yourselves unmanifest then—to portions of yourselves that you are only now becoming. You sensed the shape of the probability that is now your life, that is now your life together (intently). And from that probable future in your past, your creative abilities were accelerated.

(9:50.) The York Beach affair happened, Ruburt’s Idea Construction experience, and the beginning of the sessions. Those events were necessary, or events very much like them, if, granting probabilities, the two of you were eager to have years of satisfying life and work. You were both growing very bitter, your idealism turning into a disillusionment that could most easily have turned into despair.

You were well aware, intuitively, of Ruburt’s strong abilities, though you had no labels for them. Ruburt was appalled at your situation, and moreover your moodiness at the time led him to fear that you might turn away from him. He sensed your abilities also, and psychically the two of you pooled your creative resources to reach beyond the reality that you know, to search for some other vaster framework that could help explain the events of your private reality and the events of the public world. For that world did indeed seem chaotic, particularly with your president’s assassination and the situation in Cuba.

The other is the lingering doubt (pause) about the self’s good intent. These are the two most nagging issues in the society, of course. Ruburt combatted them to a strong degree, in order that the sessions could even emerge (intently).

(10:25.) A note: the two of you—for you are both involved since 1964—have not only initiated a new framework from which others, as well as yourselves, can view the nature of reality more clearly, but you also had to start from scratch, so to speak, to get the material, learn to trust it, and then to apply it to your own lives—even while “the facts were not all in yet.” At no point did you have all of the material to draw upon, as for example your readers do at any given point. So tell Ruburt not to judge himself too harshly, and (whispering) in all of this have him try to remember his sense of play, and to read often that July session on the creative state.