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DELETED SESSION

(While looking for a private session for Sue Watkins yesterday I came across the one dated April 12, 1971. A line in it stayed with me, so that I read it over this afternoon. I ended up discouraged, I’m afraid, for much in it about Jane’s symptoms, and our joint reasons for allowing them to linger, still applied. Jane read it before the session. Some of it concerned her holding back on her own success for fear that my lack of success would be painful to me, compared to her achievements. I asked her if she thought such thinking could still play a part in her hassles. She didn’t think so. I certainly hoped it didn’t. The session contains an excellent opening line or two that I want to use in a note for Mass Events.

(Jane was getting more and more relaxed as we sat for the session. “But I didn’t want to miss a session,” she said sleepily. Then: “I feel him around now, at least—I guess I’ll be ready in a second....”)

The apartment house was one thing, a mixture of various classes of people. When you came here (to Pinnacle Road), to a more lucrative kind of middle-class America, Elmira-style, you wondered what people thought, that you were home all the time. To some extent (underlined), and again, only as part of the picture, the symptoms have been a social device that to varying degrees, now, suited your purposes, both of you. Beside that, the session given recently on the creative state, is vital, for you became hypnotized, of course, by the materialized situation. So reread that session with this one.

(Jane often rereads the private session for July 16, 1979.

The session just referred to on the creative state has important hints that Ruburt has been using, but can use better. (Pause.) The symptoms have served, then, as a framework. Oftentimes body language is used in such cases, to state a situation, to communicate an attitude that is otherwise not clearly stated. Bringing such issues into the open does help, for the more consciously you become aware of what you are saying through a physical condition, the more adequately you can state it verbally, or in other ways. You do not need your body then to make such a statement for you.

The sessions, dream activity, Ruburt’s writing of books, his poetry and his painting—these states by themselves contribute to his health. Worrying, future projections of unpleasant conditions, concern over a public image, or whatever, even overconcern about his work itself—these cause strain and tension. (Pause.) When you see yourselves as being primarily in direct opposition to the ideas of the world (pause), then Ruburt feels the need also to overprotect himself from it. You should see yourselves as primarily in an excellent position to help the world, which brings about an entirely different set of feelings and beliefs.

End of session (whispering). A fond good evening.

(For perhaps fifteen minutes after he’d jumped up in Jane’s chair, Billy had descended from that spot and curled himself up against me as I sat taking notes on the couch. He’d remained in that position until the end of the session. This too was a little unusual for him to do.)