“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(10:25. Jane was rather unhappy when she came out of trance. She said she was “mad”—an adjective I’d heard her use several times earlier today as she talked about her own physical state, beliefs, control, etc. I asked her now to dictate to me exactly what she wanted me to record: “Now he’s telling us that to take conscious control of your beliefs and life and everything does involve a new manipulation of consciousness, where I’d been knocking my guts out thinking it should be something you can do real easy. So how come I’m so dumb, I’ve been thinking. After all these books he tells us that. All of this is my interpretation,” she said, “based on what I remember I said in trance.” She was more than a little upset. “Like now he’s saying ‘Well, there are a few difficulties involved,’ where before it all seemed so easy. A little bit tricky—”

Your experience concerning Jack Wall (on March 23, 1978) was quite legitimate, although it happened some time ago, in your terms (a point I’d wondered about). It was triggered by your associations immediately previous. In a way, Jack found it inconceivable that he should die. He wondered at first why Elizabeth did not perceive him, and he remained unconscious of his own funeral. He did perceive such a light (as I sensed)—the light of understanding.

Now give us a moment.... You should both read tonight’s session, book dictation, with Ruburt’s situation in mind. You have tried to maintain stability while you work, and have schooled yourselves so that it is not disrupted. You are still both afraid—Ruburt primarily, of course—of really trying for fear you will be disappointed, and worried at the disruptions that might occur—again, Ruburt primarily. Most of all, however, he has identified of late with what he thinks of as his failure.

He became afraid of trying again to disrupt the old patterns. You of course do give tacit consent, and give up whatever role of leadership you possess in that area, which is far more considerable than you allow yourself to admit. Ruburt is often afraid he has little control over the situation. This prevents him of course from breaking the patterns.

You tell yourself you have little control over his actions, or that your feelings make little difference in the face of his actions, but that is the other side of the same coin. He begins with the pendulum and drops it, but neither do you encourage him to persist.

The winter doldrums always affect him, but are of course reinforced. Today’s visitor (Josette) came in response to Ruburt’s need, bringing him appreciation and a new encounter—but tonight’s session dictation can be of considerable benefit to you both. Ruburt simply drops the issue for a while—and then he feels panicky—at times a quite normal reaction to a sense of powerlessness. Neither of you have persisted with the Framework 2 methods.