“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(10:25. Jane was rather unhappy when she came out of trance. She said she was “mad”—an adjective I’d heard her use several times earlier today as she talked about her own physical state, beliefs, control, etc. I asked her now to dictate to me exactly what she wanted me to record: “Now he’s telling us that to take conscious control of your beliefs and life and everything does involve a new manipulation of consciousness, where I’d been knocking my guts out thinking it should be something you can do real easy. So how come I’m so dumb, I’ve been thinking. After all these books he tells us that. All of this is my interpretation,” she said, “based on what I remember I said in trance.” She was more than a little upset. “Like now he’s saying ‘Well, there are a few difficulties involved,’ where before it all seemed so easy. A little bit tricky—”

Now give us a moment.... You should both read tonight’s session, book dictation, with Ruburt’s situation in mind. You have tried to maintain stability while you work, and have schooled yourselves so that it is not disrupted. You are still both afraid—Ruburt primarily, of course—of really trying for fear you will be disappointed, and worried at the disruptions that might occur—again, Ruburt primarily. Most of all, however, he has identified of late with what he thinks of as his failure.