“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The idea seemed to be that creativity, mine and anyone’s, is initially playful, curious, seeks expression—and is one of the highest kinds of psychic play—the artist playing with concepts no matter what the art; and actually inserts his or her reality onto the world, superimposed upon it. But the creative basic part of the personality enjoys that; the doing, primarily—the art will always be an individual interpretation and recreation of the world—that exists for itself and is its own meaning.

(Its very difficult for the practical world—for people who aren’t primarily “artists or creators” to deal with that sort of thing; they don’t know where to place it and ideas alone make them uncomfortable—they aren’t real or unreal according to their way of looking at reality.

(My personal problems developed in force when I began to be overly concerned with my creative “work” as work, as it applied to the world, as it would be received and interpreted; when I tried to compare its reception to other officially accepted activities—that people understood—when I tried to look at my “work” through their eyes, and when I began to expect the kind of honor and approbation given to others—who conformed.

(I am right—meaning in accord with my own nature—when I “forget” each book as it is done... Basically the creative play exploration, writing, is the main core of my creativity—and I do that for the love of doing it. I am“lucky” that the books sell, and that does mean that the world does accept “my work” to a certain important degree. But basically creativity is not a career in usual terms. It cannot be treated like a lawyer’s career or a scientist’s or whatever. When I started doing this, I aroused the protective elements—the conservative elements—of my personality... which immediately wanted approval for my books—not that I shouldn’t want approval per se but that I began to demand that my art provide all my needs; to financially support me, to give me honor among my fellows, a sense of belonging, etc. Now this can be expected to some degree for a noncreative career; but it can damage creative activity; the need for creativity naturally is... the creation of something new that disrupts the conservative principles; and that freedom is paramount. If you confuse the issues you try to temper your creativity (to gain approval, etc.) which can dilute the work; or you set up protective measures to protect yourself against the worlds disapproval or scorn.

(It was: distinguish between the natural and cultural or social world and assure myself I am safe in the natural world.

(To remind the subconscious of its love for the natural world and walking alone or with Rob; being out in the elements. Ask it to revive those loves and desires.